I didn't make it to school today, I was feeling too, BLAH.
I'm having a sore throat and an extremely itchy nose. I think it was the fact that I haven't been getting enough rest, rather than the fact that my nose itches and my throat aches. I'm happy I finally got rest, but I'm a little afraid that I might have missed a lot today. We had 3 tests, and I was only prepared for one. It's as if I don't know what the hell I'm doing in school. It's become something you THINK you're ready for, but you're not really ready. You think "okay I'm set" when you're hardly even close. I used to wonder how I was going to make it through school, and for a while I thought, "Okay I can do this." But I'm not sure, can I? Even if I do, how far am I going to make it anyway? It's just that school, sucks. And I don't think it's supposed to suck. It shouldn't be that way but it seems to be for almost everyone. I just think it shouldn't be this way.

And today I was on the com and I saw this article about Heath Ledger and his death and I think that if it really was accidental, it really sucks. But I mean, it can't be because no one overdoses by accident, that would be really dumb. But then why would he want to die, he had so much ahead of him. It's just weird when you think about someone who died, and it's accidental? It just makes no sense because it's not the kind of death that you can't control. It's that he was taking the pills, and he knew how many he was taking, so what was he thinking exactly? He wasn't depressed (was he?) I just don't get it and it makes me feel uneasy. I just want to know what he was thinking. It just makes me feel-off.

xoxo
kath