Hello, okay so I decided to post today, seeing as I haven't been posting much lately. But yeah, some people always saying "AIYAAA SHE ALWAYS NEVER POST" So now I'm posting again. Anyway, today, well today was okay I guess.

I feel like I'm really pushing myself from day to day right now. It's as if I've reached my limit and all I seem to do is try to push that limit higher and higher. I'm not sure how much more I can push that limit. I've got PE tomorrow, and CHINESE and A math and I'm planning so many things. It's like everything's been coming down and trying to stop me from growing, and reaching higher. I've got to get myself some time management lessons. It's just that I'm filling all my time with work and math and I feel like I need more time to think about church, or to BREATHE. I can barely breathe under the pressure. And I'm slowly forgetting why I wanted to go to double science, it's insane how the workload is just given out. It's as if the teachers are saying "You will give me your time, you will give me your energy, I need you 110%" But I don't think I have that much. I'm not sure, I just pray that I can balance school and everything else. I just hope I can continue to serve the best I can and not flunk out. And right now my Mum keeps bringing up things like, you come home so late on weekdays, and you got church on saturdays, WHAT ABOUT MEEEEE. And I love my mum, and my family, but I can't even sit down and think for a second. It's as if I'm a machine, and as much as I wish I could be one, I am not, which is sad, I think. Anyway, I just pray I'll have enough time for church, for work, for my family, and for my friends. I hope I will remain to have time in my life for god. I just, AHHHH what is the school doiiiiinnnnnnnnggggggggg. They're driving me craaaaaaazy.

But through all the tough stuff, I thank god for all the blessings he's given me. I hope in this time I just don't forget to thank him and KEEP PATIENT as I go out, to school, and anywhere, aahhhh. I hope I don't explode right about now.

xoxo
kath