I've been feeling a little below average. The stress, I cannot handle the stress. I don't like hearing all this talk about double science geniuses, because I highly doubt that I am going to be one of them, and that scares me half to death. I love humanities, but I can't help but feel this expectancy from people, as if thinking humanities isn't so bad, really is that bad. I can't help but feel, helpless at this point in time.

Sometimes, and only sometimes, I can't fall asleep. Thinking that every waking moment for this long haul will be spent thinking about you, the last thing I need to be thinking about right now.

Went to study with Belda, Jia Cheng and Lum today at Jurong East. Jia Cheng bought us a lot of stuff as usual, treating us to a lot of small things. Then I got to talk to Belda, who is really good to talk to. I really feel like she understands a lot, and I'm not afraid to talk to her. Then we went to KFC after Lum left, to eat 3 piece chicken meal. Then went home at around 3.

Seems that lately, I've had so little patience to spare. I just want this to end, this hellish feeling I have. Everything is daunting. This coming Monday is daunting, due homework is daunting, End Of Years are the most daunting. I wish I could sleep, for so so long and just miss this whole thing, whatever it is. I guess you could say I'm scared, but for some reason I'm just so angry that people are expecting so much from us on such a short deadline. I'm so damn angry that I can't seem to keep up, I need to keep up. The stress is insane, this feeling is insane.

kath.