I just don't know what I'm doing anymore,

I'm feeling disconnected, just suddenly, and not so reasonably I guess. I just feel as if I've been kicked in the stomach and all the air is just escaping from me all of a sudden. I just feel deflated and confused, with nothing in particular.

I wish you'd stop being so quite, and stop smiling at everyone but me. If you're angry then say it, if I disgust you then tell it to my face. I wish you'd just get over yourself so I can get over myself. You keep kicking me in the damn head when I'm down, and maybe if you'd stop I'd finally be able to get up, and maybe you'd finally shut up.

And honey,
not everyone out there is your friend.