I can't really hold it in much longer so I'll just say it now.
You know that sinking feeling you get when you think about something, it's kinda like a flashback. Just in the bad/good sense. I mean, it was good in the past, but cause of circumstances now, it just makes your heart sink and the bile rise. It just keeps happening, and you know you can't stop it. I just wish I could, and for so long I believed I had complete control of my mind, body and soul, whatever, but apparently I'm not as in control as I thought I was. But whatever, I just want to stop thinking for a moment, this is getting frustrating and pointless.

You're such a waste,
such a beautiful waste.