I got tanned, okay, maybe tanned isn't a word I should use to describe myself. I got tanner, okay much better. It just hit me this morning, yes, it hit me like a speeding truck. I'm feeling catty, okay maybe that's not a good word. I feel, edgier, sharper, brittle almost. I'm craving for meat, I know it sounds weird, but I really do. Which is bad since I am after all, I'm supposed to be on my way to becoming a vegan. But I can't get the thought of chicken out of my mind. Damnnit, what is wrong with me?
I've been feeling dizzier than usual, lately I can't seem to even walk straight. Ear imbalance, low blood pressure, I'm not sure what it is about now. But whatever it is, I think it's my immune system or something, that's trying to let me know that this little fucked up kid needs to get her diet in place. I think I eat too little red meat, maybe that's why I'm craving for a medium rare steak. Hey, that's the most I can handle without puking, a little blood but not an overdose. I'm still human you know, yes, I am human, no I am not lying. I just have different ways of turning coffee into elaborate plans of becoming rich. Okay, what was I talking about again? Nevermind, let's move on to my mental health, I know we're all dying to see how it's coming along, I myself am rather interested.
I feel unravled, not a good sign, I keep thinking about random things that bring up bouts of tempation, sorrow, and a twinge of jealousy. I want to be a vampire, but then again, I also want to fly, become a rockstar, and have a certain electric guitar signed by fall out boy. So, we don't always get what we want. But one good thing though, I started on another book, yes, immediately after I finished "Peeps". It's called "Last Days" more vampirism involved, after all, it is the sequel to "Peeps". But now it's from an infectee's point of view. So far, it's been a harsh book. Very spirit dampening and mind altering. I can almost feel my brain re-wiring. But it's an incredible book, once again gross, but incredible. Elaborates on symptoms, and also puts you in the shoes of the victim and how their lives are turned inside out, ripped to shreds, and put back together in an awkward backwards manner. Things that they used to love pain them as much as a cold knife to the heart. Metaphorically, it's just that but I'm talking realistically here, things like that bring them pain. It's sad, rewires your brain, makes you think different after you read the book. Very nice. All the wires in my brain are getting jumbled up, it's kinda fun seeing how my thoughts change over time. Book after book, word after word.
How fawesome is that?