I felt better this morning, relaxed. I think "fexcellent" is helping me channel all that extra frustration boiling over. The only side effect is that I'm always itching to update now. Sometimes I even feel like writing down sudden things that come to me. It's nice to finally have an outlet for my emotions. I don't know why the blog didn't exactly do it for me, but I love fexcellent. It's so fawesome, I finally feel relaxed, sort of. I'm still paranoid, nerve wrecked, overly anxious. Yeah, but it's getting bearable to be me nowadays, I guess. I'm sleepy though, I almost gave into my lack of sleep during chinese. But I can't be blamed, I just don't go very well with chinese. In fact, I don'treally go well with many things. Never really did anyway, I couldn't be bothered about getting along with humanity. It would be a shame for me to conform, wouldn't it?
Sometimes I feel really stupid, I don't get things and people now a days. I wish I was born in the past where there were horses and cobblestone floors. Things seemed happier then, the nature so warm and welcoming. The 21st century is cold, and full of forbidden fruits. Nothing's edible anymore, the only enjoyment is with the cold emotionless computer screen we all fall slave to. Thoughts and actions manipulated by past influences, when did it become so hard to just be here, right now, nothing in the way of me, and my lost happiness?
When did happiness become so hard?