I'm so dissapointed with myself, and my marks. I got a B3 for science, I dropped by 2 grades, it's insane. I'm so lazy, or maybe it's the stupidity setting in, I'm not very sure. But I feel tired, again. I'm feeling weird too much nowa days, I feel inbetween about alot of things, I'm becoming indesicive. I'm horribly irresponsible, I can't stand myself. I'm weak, I cave in when it comes to my uncontrollable temptations. I feel to lazy to talk, sometimes I just wan to sit down and not have to talk. I just want to be there, and silent. My mouth feels heavy, foreign even. I don't know what's going on, I feel like caving into myself. I still haven't really found myself this year, I don't think I will.

Save some face,
you know you've only got one
change your ways, while you're young.
Boy one day, you'll be a man.

I lost track of something more important than time, I think I lost track of myself. I don't know what I like anymore, I don't know who I like anymore, I don't know why I never feel comfortable, why I feel like I have to try so hard to feel normal, why no one seems to be around anymore. At least no one who cares, but I have to be a fortress, I have to be my own company. It just gets tired being around people who don't get many things, who don't get me. I'm so nerdy, I'm so happy,
I'm such a fucking poser.