Candy is so addictive, I fucking hate candy. I could blow a whole month's savings on some twizzlers or something. I always feel best in candy stores, I'll always be a fat kid on the inside. Anyway, today was boring, and very mundane. I didn't do anything productive, I didn't even learn that much in school. I felt literature was a let down, it wasn't boring, but it wasn't compelling for me. I just sat in my seat getting frustrated over the fact that I spelt the word onomato-fucking-poeia wrong. I spelt it wrong, I missed out an "o", I feel wasted.

Sometimes I guess it's not a good idea to have wildly high expectations, they rarely get lived up to. My day in total, was far from fun filled. It wasn't drop dead awful, but it was more like "I-wish-I-could-shoot-him-and-him-and-him-too", in other words, I ran out of patience. I exploded today, I yelled at Ming Jie, then felt bad. How useless am I? I can't even stay mad at someone, and of all people Ming Jie. I guess I don't like to be mad, but this is ridiculous. I'm a circus freak, like the bearded lady, just less fascinating and dumber. I fell alseep during Chinese, I really couldn't help myself, it's the side effects of drowsy pills. But I doubt I missed anything big, it's not like I understand chinese in the first place. I should opt for CLB, I've been failing since primary school so I don't see much of a difference. It's not like I'll choose to speak chinese in the future. By then we'll be living underwater and english will be the only language left, the future excites me.
I'm not as hyped up as I used to be, I guess it's cause of what I'm going through. But I'm getting checked this coming Tuesday at NUH. So I'm hoping all the fog will be cleared soon. I just hope it isn't anything really bad, like that time my hamster died, that was bad, the world shattering kind of bad.